joys and terrors of creation

i
                                     (not you)
continue to climb through,
try to justify the things
the things i
                                     (there is no you)
have done,
believing in you
                                     (not myself)
as i
                                     (not you)
look to my
                                     (there is only me)
reflection
it is not at all what i
                                     (you)
hoped it would be
we
                                     (you & i)
say those thousand things
words you & i
                                     (we)
think we
                                     (you & i)
have to say
do you
                                     (not i)
feel the hollowness
inside of your
                                     (my)
heart
look at me
                                     (us)
there are fragments
where my
                                     (our)
compassion used to be
so much violence
in our
                                     (you & i)
hearts trying to seal
themselves shut
i
                                     (there is no you)
want to kill
everything that
is left of me
                                     (of us)
(you & i)
                we will always be
beside you
                                     (always i)
and i
                                     (always with you)
the lights in the sky,
these two exploding stars
                                     (only us)